I heard something in a movie, “a deliberate action is unforgivable” .. I even wanted to edit that, as I was writing it. Still making believe, and making excuses, for those whom have really hurt me. Like, “something deliberate is hard to forgive, but not unforgivable”….or disect it into,.. d.e.l.i.b.e.r.a.t.e., mean, want to hurt toward. As a deliberate act, ..I guess that is unforgivable. In haste, anger reaction, yet not defined by “deliberate,” would be non intent. Knowingly constructing a “punishment”, a deliberate attempt on that person’s demise, to purposely compromise situation in a negative way, mentally, physically, and/or both, could be defined as deliberate intent. So the low income, beaten down woman with no money, is going to wait for her futile attempt. Waiting for “legal aide”.It’s a hard road. It’s a beaten down road. I know these things. Who is going to lead the family. The abuser? YOUR family that ignores your feelings and needs, and steps in and pretends it’s ok? Let’s take a look at the abuser. A person whom takes more time dwelling on their own insecure needs and ego, than facing the dark realities of their own reflection. Interesting about humans, NO MATTER HOW THEY TRY TO FOOL THEMSELVES, NO MATTER HOW THEY TRY TO SEDATE THEMSELVES,HIDE THEMSELVES, NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS ,AT TIMES, TO FACE THEMSELVES, THEY WILL STILL LOOK AT THEIR REFLECTION IN A MIRROR………I’m tired….to be continued……..you betta believe it.